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book down and march to the kitchen for a cup of coffee.. the click click of your high heels on the floor does not seem at all strange or out of place...it feels natural... as it should be. You are a female, not a man in dresses,
and that's that.
that moment.
Your other "self" just wasn't there at
I strongly feel that the personality split can happen to any TV, as long as he practices TVism constantly, not just a few hours on a week-end. Short spells of dressing are not sufficient to divest the "self" from its habitual frame. It needs longer periods to really come forth bit by bit to its new reality. Once these new personality "bits" are set, through practice, they come to the fore very easily and in less time. Personally, I have noticed that every time I put Susanna back in the closet and dress as a man to go to the office, Susanna takes a few hours be- fore she gives up the struggle and lets the other self take over. There's an overlapping for a while. She lingers on despite the change of attire. Rather embarassing sometimes. I've cought myself several times smoothing down the back of my trousers just before taking a seat on the bus or subway. Quite a shock to oneself. Or, visiting friends as a male, I've caught myself beginning to curl up on a sofa....oops!
Well, see you in TVia #9 and best wishes for a most feminine 1961. Love to all from...
. Q
Susanna,
((Ed. Note. I agree with Susanna about the personality bits and pieces. I have often explained it to others by saying that each feminine experience is recorded and over the years constructs a feminine personality (or Feminality as Peggie Val Addair calls it, cute name too.) After all this is the way our male personality is built too, She is also right about the Feminality lingering in those of us who have freedom enough to allow it to become real, Those who know of Virginia often say of a Monday morning that they can tell that Virginia has been around the previous weekend. This kind of thing should be important to sociologists.))